GO WITH THE FLOW

destination.

STAY AWAY FROM ME

I WAS GOING TO TALK ABOUT MY DAY TILL SOMEONE HAD TO COMPLETELY RUIN IT.
THANKS ALOT. NOW PLEASE GOO AWAY.

I HAD A DREAM

I had a dream...

I was being sent to a dead sentence of being hanged.
(I can't remember why i was to be hanged.)
Upon being hanged, i didn't even feel the strangle for air when i was let go.
Instead i entered another world.
A world of the walking dead.
Every soul existed amongst the living, they just couldn't be seen.
We were taught to walk through people and remain on earth for a trial period...
To my surprise i even met a friend who was dead in my dream.

Horrifying?
The best part is yet to be heard.
I thought of death before i slept.
A bedtime story from me to you, goodnight world.

ANGST WITHIN

I think the heading says it all.
What do you think?
You put me down over and over again.
When will you ever end?


goodnight world.
I guess today's not a good day.
again.

LET'S CLIMB A TREE..

You say cliche? I say how adorable.

I know i've been uploading alot of pictures but this is as good as it gets for now!

To the girl in mauritius

To my eastcoast buddy.
I miss you so very much.



Oh how cute you were.


Remember the shots we had?


we had fun.


Paint fights and thinner aroma.


How silly we acted at the arcade.


Our trips to the beaches and music in the background.

and this is our song.

You so have to sing me for again when you come back.
If you ever that is.

hahas.

Zara hugs you kat. <33

And so they say...

and so they say...
"ooouchhhhhhh. I've got a cramped toe!"

I really had a bad toe cramp! hahas.
I could only wriggled my big toe and the rest after the second toe.
yes, laugh it up.
It was painful okay!
hahahahahas.

Anything beyond this is not really important.
Soooo.. you can close this link now.

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I don't want to go to bed crying anymore.
I don't want to continue this road of self-pity.
I know now that things will never work out between us.
I tried different approaches to reach you.
I woke up with smiles that were based on lies that you cared.
It's not like I'm going to die without you
But the agony you created in me could have killed me.
Every sad song made me cry with you in it.
You occupied all the space i had in my brain.
Does this sound obsessively frightening to your horror?
it gets worse, trust me.

I made a huge mistake with someone that made a impact in my life years ago.
3 days was all it took and lasted me quite sometime.
I could never forgive myself for such a foolish act.
I told myself never again will i make that with someone i felt close to my heart.
And you were the next It-guy along my track.
I don't fall easily, boy you check.
Some used to call me "heartbreaker; insensitive"
What did they know?
Only criticize without knowing anything about me.
If you blow me away with your personality at first impression, you got me already.
If you don't blow me away, i'm really sorry this is how i'm made.

You made me giggle to myself by your every message.
You made my heart beat faster than running a km.
You made me smile with your quirkiness
Your charming character made me fall even more apart your blessed looks.
You brought straight-shot happiness in this walking corpse

Weird as it is,
I knew i loved you.
But i tried to hide.
It was too strong for me to handle.
And you just don't see how much it made an impact on me.

You say all the girls say they love you.
But did you bother looking out for me?
I didn't care if you couldn't drink
I didn't care if you loved techno
I didn't even care if you were called the black sheep
Because you meant so much more to me.

Disappear.
Just stay away from me.
The more you pretend to forget me, the clearer it gets in my eyes.

These words i said to you:

Turn off the lights so you can't see my eyes.

Do they sound familiar? Do they ring a bell?
The reason i said that was because i wanted the lights off cause I was the girl crying and the darkness took me in when i was broken.



I loved you stranger.
I actually believed in love at first sight for you,
and you?
You just pushed me aside...

For you mommy.

Oh mommy lovely flowers for you

And mid years are over!
Rejoice oh rejoice you say.
I'm here to disagree with you.
It maybe the end of mid years but the preparation of my mother's yelling has yet to start.
So i've decided that i'm gonna take a short break and get back on track with studies.
Hopefully it won't be too disastrous.
Why do some of us have difficulty letting go?
Because we become too dependent on that certain something or someone
or we believe eventually there's hope at the end of the tunnel?
what is it that's keeping us from letting go?
Ourselves?

Zara out to spend time with mom.
<3

Gummy bears with love

Still sniffing and definitely still blowing.
There wasn't any paper today so it was a stay-home day for mee!
I was really excited being at home thinking of all the things i could do.
Whether it was the laundry, or clean up my room bla bla bla.
I sat on the couch and i didn't get up after that. Lazy bum you say? I say yesss.
Can't blame me if the medicine i'm taking constantly makes me tired and sleepy.
Whatever it is, it was emotions spiraling downwards.
Jovial -> tired -> melancholic.
Tsk.
I should take more medicine.
tata world.

MUSE SPECIAL

i can't breathe.


Z out.

Succumbing to the sneezes

falling sick again.
I can feel it.
Where did you go?
Come back.

What you leave behind
What you choose to be

SILLY BILLY YOUU

Guess what world...

I A M H A P P Y !

i received a message.

A good message.

A happy message.

Thunder storms in my life have stopped for a moment.

Just a glimpse of hope of resurrection.

Saying the word HAPPY never felt so good.


ZARA KISSES YOU <3

Anticipation, for precipitation.

Ella ella eh eh eh .