It's for me to know and for you to find out

goodnight goodnight

Not with the flow today. Seriously need to dunk my head in Ice water.
Maybe that would work.Maybe..

tuned out.

I "love" Graphs

Bet you miss seeing this don't you!

I have made a decision.
I have decided to love graphs.
Or at least convince myself with a grin on my face
"Alrighty now! This is fun!"
YA RIGHT.

I meant, yeah right: )

today's a sinful day and i hate feeling guilty but i do:(
1. I ate an Up-sized Mcwings meal.
2. I didn't go for tutorial.
3. I took a extremely long nap.
4. I ate Chocolate right before dinner.
5. I lied.

This is bad i tell you.
BAD
BAD
BAD.

Maths tuition was rather fun today.
J was just telling me of how he once dreamt of MATHS.
1 + 2 = 5 ??
HAHAS.
Apparently, that's what he said. But he still did well anyways.

Our humorous conversation we had.
Me: Wow! You have nice handwriting. Boys don't usually have nice handwriting.
J: Err, I'm a man.

Hahas, nonsenses i tell you.

goodnight world.

R FOR RROSE

I rather be a silly girl with a rose,
then a silly boy with a stick.


goodnight world.

Please don't tear my paper wings

I had dreams of monsters.


Melancholic mood.
The coldness of the night surrounds me.
Swallows me up and locks me inside.
Without air, i suffocate in this illusionary dungeon
I shouldn't have been too complacent
I should have foreseen this
Ever so heavy & ever so stubborn
I'm crushed to the ground
By its silence.




goodnight world.

But Honey Pie, you're not safe here

I was an inch close not going to school today.
I wanted to remain in my land where nothing mattered.
Well, that only applies when i don't dream of course:)
But I'm glad i did actually.

We had a youth talk about life on the hold.
Issues each and everyone of us have difficulty with.

I really enjoyed the 7hours i spent there.

PARADIGMS
we all have it.

Whatever we've done sth wrong or wished to have changed sth about ourselves, our lives, our words, our actions, that's all the in past now.

What I've constantly said to myself or to people is that what matters the most is right now.

It was good to hear back the advice i once preached.
You can't change the past, but you can treasure right now & change the future.

Here's an inspiring message to whose who need some light in their lives.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. - quoted by Marianne Williamson



You know that feeling where everything feels right?
Where you don't have to worry about tomorrow or yesterday, where you feel safe and know you're doing the best you can?
There's a word for that, it's called love.
L-O-V-E.

maybe i'll find it someday.

goodnight world.

Ice Ice baby

People dream of having dreams.
I don't.
I get the weirdest ones ever!

Brad Pitt + Angelina Jolie + paparazzi = extremely weird.

I once had a dream of an Editor telling me it was a
" Dog eat dog world. "
Does that makes sense to you?
With additional sentences like " one-night stand " involved.
HAHAS
i won't tell you about that part!

But it was hilarious:D

I need to get a new piggy.
My piggy bank broke:(
It had a tragic death.
It was the best piggy i ever had.

Best kiss

I wanna do this someday:)


Please remember me,wonder about me,look for me,find me - A place called here.

goodnight world.

PURPLE VEINS

CANDY YUM!



Have you seen any cuter candy shop then this?

Did i tell you?
I'm convinced that my Ipod is a female.
It's totally & utterly obsessed with Zac Efron!
Everytime i plug in, an Efron's song will be played without fail.



Me: " Kat your a Anorexic freak "
kat: " Your a Fashion nerd freak "
Me: " At least I'm fashionable:)

Okay,fine.
I hope to be at least!
hahas


Katsie. Cheer up.
Whether you are taking pure bio or not, i know you can do it.
And you will always be beautiful to me:)

A lovely message for you cardybuddy:
I know your going through a really tough time.
I know no one can be compared to you cause everybody goes through different kind of hardship.

Just know that i'm here for you always.
With Olevels in the way, it's gonna be slightly tighter for now on but know that i'm always here for you.

I know love him.
You care so much for him
But if things don't ever work out, know that you deserve so much more alright?



Finding this book could have been the death of me, i tell you.
But I DID IT.
I found it :D


A funny clip just you.
get cracking:)


OH. GUESS WHAT.
I managed to fix the kitchen light!
Something to feel proud of.
This is what you have to do when you do not have a domestic helper.
sigh.

I don't want to fall in love
I don't want to see the stars up above in the sky



So i closed my eyes & said goodbye.

There she goes with a twinkle in her eyes.

So finally done with the prelims.


YES? NOOOOOOOOOOOO.

This means the next step is Olevels.
That means DOOM.

I'm here to talk with you my cabby rides i had!

The cab driver said:
You chinese indian ah!
I said:
Er, yes :)

And this is what i found out from the uncle.
95% of the Singapore indians are drinkers.
99% of the Singapore chinese men are gamblers.
So i wondered. What does that make me?

Oops, i'm not a guy:D

I shall relate to another fun cab ride i had.
This uncle said " I had three wives."
Me: Okay.
Know what i called my last wife?
China doll.
You know what i called my second last wife?
Barbie doll.
You know what my first wife was called?
Aiyoyo.

PANADOL LA.

HAHAHAHAS. I sure did enjoy that cab ride.

Something fun for you to watch.



Laugh your way to bed.

goodnight world.

I am a vernier calipers

What happened to the serenity?


Made my way down to City hall to collect some stuff.
Took a walk in Mall and realised that they are also upgrading themselves.
Talk about being left behind man.
Anyways, walked into boutiques i couldn't afford: (

So decided to stay in City to TRY and study.

Yes world, the word is CAPITALISED up.

Phone was busy buzzing away at the wrong time.
Either i get no calls when i'm ultimately bored or,
when i'm extremely packed with things to do,
tonnes of messages come in.

Mood swings didn't help at all.
It happily made things worse.

Afraid of me?
Be very very afraid.

The train ride home was a peculiar one.
I caught a lady continuously staring at me!

Everytime i sensed her gaze upon me,
I would look at her and i would catch her eyeballs pretending to look in a different direction!
It didn't get any better when i managed to get a sit.
Unfortunately,
next to her.
Maybe she thought i was her long-lost younger sister or something.


Have you ever denied something that existed?
And when that existence of that denial became heavier,
you seem to have been drawn into more denial?

That denial of existence kept your oil lamp burning,
however when that existence faded away,
your lamp grew weaker?

Denial of that existence.
Where have you gone?


goodnight world.



Oh to the girl who nickname me "Vernier Calipers",

YOUR'RE A MICROMETER SCREW GAUGE :D

<3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME :)

SWEET



I'm finally 17.
It feels weird actually saying it.
" Hi there! Guess what! It's my birthday today & I'm 17! "

I get to be a total kid for the day.
I get to stomp my feet, whine, cry, make funny faces :D

HAHAS.

It's nice to know i've got treated meals that are awaiting me. hahas

To:
Sherie - After prelims ah. I can't wait.
Charles - Bring me out you say? I'll hold you to your words!

I want a teddy bear, a lollipop, flowers, a new doll house ...

I get to be the spoilt brat for the day :D
HAHAS

Relax, i'm just kidding.

Hope i do have a great day ahead.

goodbye world.

A tear from the sky tonight

It's been rather long since i last typed an entry.
Yes, i know what your thinking.
WHY HAVE I ABANDONED YOU! you yelp inside:D

I haven't and i didn't, don't worry.

2 months huh, time does pass fast when you least expect it to.
Especially when life becomes cloudy and sometimes you just don't wanna think about it.
SO!
I'll talk about more interesting stuff.

So i caught I know who killed me yesterday night.
Boy, did it scare the living daylights out of me.
I knew it was a semi-horror movie however i wasn't prepared for what i saw yesterday.
Horror, yes.
Scares me to the core, but it's fun to watch.
Adrenaline rush, heart pumping faster all the blood gush.
That's fun.
But GORE?
Oh no no no no.

I bet i was the loudest in the cinema.
But i didn't care because it was so terrifying!
Whether the ratings for it was good or bad, I must say Lindsay wasn't that bad.
If she could make me afraid, i guess she had me then.
Derrick! You didn't tell me there was going to be gore la.
Some more want to scare me in the cinema!
Just wait.
One day,i'll creep out from the dark corner and scare you!
Back to Lohan.
She was awfully hot. Boys, in for some stripteases?

Who knew i could put the pieces together when i was too busy being 100% terrified?
I can't believe my suspect was the music teacher.
and so he was the one.
How creepy is that!

But what really crept me out the most was how he knew so much about her.
All the similar facts i picked out from the movie, really made me feel frightened to go home by myself.
After all, my block is no longer safe.
I shall not scare you so i won't disclose the block number.

I'm really afraid to see him again.
The 1st time was bad enough to already burn a horrible mark in my memory.
The 2nd time was for me to hide away.
The 3rd time just a earth check to me that he hasn't disappeared yet.

The memory of his voice snakes its way through my body causes all my muscles to petrify.


I didn't get to thank the girls for the lovely roses that day.
So here's my big shout out.
I LOVE THEM <3


For all you blood thirsting people.

When the blood flows into your veins, your breath catches and your min spins out into that huge black space of unreality - marshmallows for breakfast

I should just find my equilibrium & concentrate on the more important things.

tata world.

Do you?

everybody laughs
everybody cries

how about you?


Call me a quitter.

Put on your retro boots

A retro special for this main stream world.

I know i've been just showing videos after videos.
But, not to fear more will come out of this soon world.



Chattanooga Choo Choo me home.

goodnight world.

Why you have red eyes,red nose & red lips

I love keane.

A bad dream.


We all have bad dreams.
Don't we?



M.I.A.
Missing person.
The person goes by the name zara.
If found please contact this no.
100-xx-i-found-her-xx-01.

goodbye world.

PROFOUND INSANITY

hope you find the light at the end of the tunnel.

Coldplay - fix you

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse?

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worst?

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try to fix you,

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you


Sufferings
Burdens
Regrets
Hopelessness
Lost
Denial
Sleepless nights
Brokenness
Suicidal
Pessimistic
Smothered
Invisible
Rejected
Left out
Drained
Melancholic
Angst
Wasted
Screwed up
Tortured
Pressured
Displaced
Unworthy

We carry the weight of the world.
We make mistakes that we once said we'll never commit again.
We sometimes wish, all these are just many bad dreams.
We wear masks to hide away what is..
uncensored,restricted,reality of this profound insanity.

To all imperfections,
we're only humans.

To put the mess in perspective,
we simply like to just know.
If only we gave,
a little concern,
a fraction of time,
a simple smile
and a teaspoon of love.

May then the world could be a better place.
goodnight world.

Unreachable.

Life pretty much isn't working out for me.

But,i guess the show must go on.


Life & death, good & bad, male & female, win & lose, lost & found.


It's a busy busy day world.
tata.

IN FEAR I SHIVERRR

Lyrics provided by LyricsMode

I'm doomed.

HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND.

1,2, you know what to do.

It's like 7.48am and i'm totally still am awake.
Had one of the most CHAOTIC nights ever! Goodness.
Ready to hear it?
Got an outfit that i thought was pretty casual,just added accessories to it.
Totally got lost up in the moment of what i was doing and then came back to reality.
Took cab to clarke quay and went to macs for abit.
Thinking i was going to bum into a family relative but luckily i didn't.
As the night unfolded itself, the events soon after happened too quick & too unnoticed.


I DROPPED MY PHONE.
Yes, world it did happen.

Thinking i was going to burst out into tears or have a break down.
To my amazement,both situations totally did not happen!
With all that's happening in this life of mine, i did my quick thinking.
I was going to get a new card,(prayed to god dad would get me a phone) and restore important details.
The situation got more mixed up.

Till......
A kind soul picked up my phone and said..

"I found your phone.".

Good morning world.

TRANSFORMERS!

Soo, i decided to bring the camera to the market.

Carrying boxes to the salvary army post wasn't as easy as i thought it would be.
But caffeine did do the trick to refresh my mind,body&soul!
choco bits... mmm! i like.
Walked around, mentally prepared my next shopping list.
Looks like by the end of this week, i'll be broke again.
I need to start saving!
Yes world, don't laugh;)
Played 2games of pool and honestly speaking,
it was the fastest games of pool i ever played in my life!
The pockets weren't as wide as classic's one but it was a blast.

Transformers! Robots in disguise.
random? Tell me about it.

goodnight world.

he's gotta be larger than life

'til the end of the night.
It's picture day world.
And it's hell gonna be a darn long post.
HOLD TIGHT.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTON! once again.
Your party was fun;)


Boy, did he want to be the model for the night.


psss, what's the new gossip?

GOOD lord! what in the world are they doing! hahas


and there's more scandal!


Testing testing! Okay, their working people.


Random? that's me.

Lightwave me.

This one is for the kids!


tata world.

HOW MANY DROPS DO YOU WANT?

Inside joke.



Class cycling outing.

Rental was from 5 to 7 bucks.
The last time i cycled was.. last year? hahas
We played something like baseball after our cycle.
We had really enthusiastic & not so enthusiastic players.
We had 'divers' and 'gliders'.
hahas
S & I shared a hilarious moment in subway.
With the bread,the meat,the veggie & lastly the dressing.

ciao world.

watch the cameras flash

SNAP!


We had literature programme that lasted for 6hours.
Can we imagine how sore our bum bums were at the end of it!
Not considering the fact our bodies have not quite recovered from the pushing on sunday.
hahas, but it was fun. I won't say i didn't enjoy myself just the hours were abit too long. That's all.
A big shout out to Julia & JP;)

It's all snapshots and vague descriptions.
Maybe it'll get better.

A new one from Hilary.
Listen closely to the lyrics world.
They are rather meaningful.

You made yourself look perfect in everyway,
So when this goes down, I'm the one that will be blamed.

goodnight world.

oh! and to cardbuddy.

With all the lies in the books

So much missed. I forgot to share with you a new video!
Before you jump on me, i thought world you should know 2 things.
Yes, EVERYBODY loves mychemicalromance.
However, first and foremost you should know that gerard & frank are mine.

goodnight world.

A LIVING DRAMA SERIES..

WOAH-OHH!

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Boy, i sure have been away for donkey years.
So much drama.
So many incidents.
And so the story goes on...

FIRST OF ALL TO..

ANDERLIN & COPELAND
awesome concert!

I had fun. The queuing wasn't torturous however, the moshing was crazy man. One of the worse for me. Right smack in the middle with all the possessed boys. I swear, I'm not kidding. There were weirdos. One that kept turning to my direction and yelling the song and his saliva came coming out.

COPELAND

One of the best songs of the night.

Now..if you sang this to me, then you sure know how to get me.



ANDERLIN






i had a great night. Saw cute people and wanna thank the guy who stood beside me for the last bit of the concert.
He was nice;)
P.s i wanna say another HUGE thanks to Ryan for giving me the picturess.
loves
tata,world.

GO WITH THE FLOW

destination.

STAY AWAY FROM ME

I WAS GOING TO TALK ABOUT MY DAY TILL SOMEONE HAD TO COMPLETELY RUIN IT.
THANKS ALOT. NOW PLEASE GOO AWAY.

I HAD A DREAM

I had a dream...

I was being sent to a dead sentence of being hanged.
(I can't remember why i was to be hanged.)
Upon being hanged, i didn't even feel the strangle for air when i was let go.
Instead i entered another world.
A world of the walking dead.
Every soul existed amongst the living, they just couldn't be seen.
We were taught to walk through people and remain on earth for a trial period...
To my surprise i even met a friend who was dead in my dream.

Horrifying?
The best part is yet to be heard.
I thought of death before i slept.
A bedtime story from me to you, goodnight world.

ANGST WITHIN

I think the heading says it all.
What do you think?
You put me down over and over again.
When will you ever end?


goodnight world.
I guess today's not a good day.
again.

LET'S CLIMB A TREE..

You say cliche? I say how adorable.

I know i've been uploading alot of pictures but this is as good as it gets for now!

To the girl in mauritius

To my eastcoast buddy.
I miss you so very much.



Oh how cute you were.


Remember the shots we had?


we had fun.


Paint fights and thinner aroma.


How silly we acted at the arcade.


Our trips to the beaches and music in the background.

and this is our song.

You so have to sing me for again when you come back.
If you ever that is.

hahas.

Zara hugs you kat. <33

And so they say...

and so they say...
"ooouchhhhhhh. I've got a cramped toe!"

I really had a bad toe cramp! hahas.
I could only wriggled my big toe and the rest after the second toe.
yes, laugh it up.
It was painful okay!
hahahahahas.

Anything beyond this is not really important.
Soooo.. you can close this link now.

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I don't want to go to bed crying anymore.
I don't want to continue this road of self-pity.
I know now that things will never work out between us.
I tried different approaches to reach you.
I woke up with smiles that were based on lies that you cared.
It's not like I'm going to die without you
But the agony you created in me could have killed me.
Every sad song made me cry with you in it.
You occupied all the space i had in my brain.
Does this sound obsessively frightening to your horror?
it gets worse, trust me.

I made a huge mistake with someone that made a impact in my life years ago.
3 days was all it took and lasted me quite sometime.
I could never forgive myself for such a foolish act.
I told myself never again will i make that with someone i felt close to my heart.
And you were the next It-guy along my track.
I don't fall easily, boy you check.
Some used to call me "heartbreaker; insensitive"
What did they know?
Only criticize without knowing anything about me.
If you blow me away with your personality at first impression, you got me already.
If you don't blow me away, i'm really sorry this is how i'm made.

You made me giggle to myself by your every message.
You made my heart beat faster than running a km.
You made me smile with your quirkiness
Your charming character made me fall even more apart your blessed looks.
You brought straight-shot happiness in this walking corpse

Weird as it is,
I knew i loved you.
But i tried to hide.
It was too strong for me to handle.
And you just don't see how much it made an impact on me.

You say all the girls say they love you.
But did you bother looking out for me?
I didn't care if you couldn't drink
I didn't care if you loved techno
I didn't even care if you were called the black sheep
Because you meant so much more to me.

Disappear.
Just stay away from me.
The more you pretend to forget me, the clearer it gets in my eyes.

These words i said to you:

Turn off the lights so you can't see my eyes.

Do they sound familiar? Do they ring a bell?
The reason i said that was because i wanted the lights off cause I was the girl crying and the darkness took me in when i was broken.



I loved you stranger.
I actually believed in love at first sight for you,
and you?
You just pushed me aside...