I should just say 1 thing.
I need to get a life.
It's so true until it's not even funny.
flying away.
later.

z out <3

Ultimate..

Number 2240.

the wait to see the doctor was sooo long.
How dumb was i not to have gone to my family doctor?
ultimate idiot.
Got my Mc, and medicine.
It's not that i want to be absent from school,but I can't help it if i'm sick.
I feel sick.
Keep worrying about things that are not important!
UGH.
sick.
both in body&mind.
sleeep.



zara out <3

hormones dispersed.

sleeping mind, thumping heart.


4.Ask What's going on.









zara out <3

show me that you want me.

Muse-
time is running out.


I think I'm drowning
Asphyxiated
I wanna break this spell
That you've created

You're something beautiful
A contradiction
I wanna play the game
I want the friction

You will be the death of me
You will be the death of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out

I wanted freedom
Bound and restricted
I tried to give you up
But I'm addicted

Now that you know I'm trapped since ovulation
You'd never dream of
Breaking this fixation

You will squeeze the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Ooooohh

You will suck the life out of me

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
How did it come to this?
Ooooohh

Hi. i'm Zara, and your tune into private session on blogspot.com.

Oh dear.
What is happening.
This world i'm living in is becoming mad. wait.
contradictions after contradictions.
This world i'm living in IS mad.
Anyways, my march holidays sucked.
basically i'm just zoning out into the absence of the mind.
L was away on holiday, D was busy with never ending camps and N was busy with her cca.
Me?
just bumming around.
Terrible isn't it?
I keep telling myself to do something about it but i never do.
Was pretty down these few days but i'm alright now.

someone amazingly funny said this to me:
" You've got to be strong. can't be weak.Never give away your heart.".
But here's the question.
If you don't give your heart, then where's the love?
They all say High expectations.
They all say Too demanding.
Then let me ask you.
"what's the point of talking highly of yourself, when you can't live up to it?"

I need someone who i can rely on.
Someone funny to vanish my boo boos away.
Someone who isn't shy to do the dumbest thing with me.
Like go into shops and try clothes of the fun out of it.
Play pool with me and not hit me with the pool ball.
Drink beer with me without faking that "your drunk".
Someone who would sneak out of the house at 3 in the morning to the beach.
Play arcade games with me without saying "it's just somewhere i don't want to be seen."
but the most important thing that only matters to me.
Is to show me that you want me.

i guess that "someone" does not exist.
Not in the world I'm forced to live in.
Not at least.

















zara out <3

stab stab stab. oh noo! she's dead.

The cold wind blew
She stared into the dead sky.
She looked at her bloody hands,
with tears in her eyes.
What had she done?
what had she done!
She looked at dropped gun,
collapsed without a sound
and waited for morning to come.













<3

PRESS & LET GOO!

My computer is so cocked up!
All it's best for now is to hang on me.
UGGH.

Missing in action.

my life is shitty.
my studies are the last thing on my mind.
my heart is hurting.
my mind is lost in the emptiness of this air.


i don't understand.
I really don't see the point in trying when all seems to fails.
I need a sign.
A sign that things will get better.






zara out. <3

BLACK GREY WHITE.

just when you think half day was going to give me time to take a break, it actually made me feel even more tired. Had "celebrations" in school for Canossian saint's day. Father who did mass was very nice. Treated us with respect & like young adults without taking the fun away. In the end we got punished for being ''disrespectful''! C'mon man. Yes, we talked and definitely laughed a little here and there. But to punish all of us by sitting in the hall for 40 mins doing nothing was cruel man! ugh. Glad that was over. Went out with JEMIE <3 style="font-style: italic;">Mr seducing perfect, so the rest of us did. Henney such a heart throb.
I'll tell you more about what's going on & about the handsome Henney yeah?
off to sleep.





















zara zZz-ing out <3